"learning to fixin' to"
I wanted to make a funny comment about a picture I cut out of a magazine, but I'm gonna send it to somebody in a letter, though I haven't decided who, and it will most likely be someone who reads this, so, ya know. Don't wanna spoil it. But remember! If you want letters, send me your address. So far I've only got 2 actual takers, and I think Ashley should remind me of her burg address so she'll at least have things to read when she gets home.You know how people say "you" in their diaries? And sometimes it's a general you, but often it's a specific you. And even oftener (more often, yada yada), at least with our little group, it's a you that will actually read the entry.
And don't you (general) just love it when the "you" is you (me)? I do.
Two little words that make some people cringe and others go dreamy-eyed. I admit I'm more the Charlotte to various other people's Miranda. The alone thing is going to take some working on. But what does it prove, anyway? Does it prove I won't be psychoanalyzed by my roommate to her friend through email? If I just stay alone--date around--pick everyone else's idea of the right guy--pick a cookie cutter of myself who believes in God and buys me flowers and listens to joni mitchell then will I prove that I'm mature enough and old enough for the two words?
Is it possible to live 70 years with a foreigner 15 years my senior?
Do I have to chose a Buddhist librarian who goes to protests and works at an organic farm?
If you have two magnets, with actual poles, North and South attract, but North and North don't touch unless you force them.
Do you follow your heart or your head? Balance, you say? Well you're not a Gemini. I don't know how much faith I put in astrology, but I do know that I'm constantly split down the middle, about practically everything. Those stupid little tests that you take, to see what kind of whatever you are -- well I'm always tied with two of them. I crave something salty then turn around and crave something sweet.
How can you (specific) know what I want when I don't know myself half the time? Or each half of myself wants something different. But the halfs agree, or one outweighs, on a lot of things...christ, i just said halfs...
